Not forum or blogsville but a person who called demselves a proffesional blogger; das wot dey saw. Me I hit blogs @ random an I've not got thru five [Bogey says ten] yet cos the people are beautiful an fascinating. Not sure why I've not got anybodys blog ref, since das another ting you leave a message on peoples blogs to get yor blog in kinda ting. Well I'm always different, have nay a clue! An besides I dunno if I should even share some blogs cos it's there own innit.
I blog; having parted from a year long relationship with rue a bit of harmony is due this poem wuz started last night an kinda went on anon to be not a poem after the night before?
Changes
One must face the pain ch ch changes so hard to see yorself before one casts the die.
We must be careful with truth an honesty in a life so full of changes.
One must face the strain coming in from the rain helps we gotta refrain from putting our body under constant strain. Ch changes must be faced before nought be gained; tis frightening if we look about where are those Ch changes
I don't want to live in truble an pain. The lord forgives it's a gift he bears it's never to late it's never to late jus look over there. The Dude his life is full of rue there's nought else for him to do but accept what has gone is not wot is gonna a be. Tis a time to stand still & take stock of thee;
Gratitude for dose dat communicate with glee; share their life & talk with harmony. Always surprised dat wot I've done/said may have helped cos it's jus me an I kno so well the word experience. Stand still is taking stock inventory, thanking a forum whose existence is there for people to share their journey. Always dis journey no matter where we are 'right here right now' is how it works. The past is irelevent especially now a new year is dawning.
Discipline is from; Chanting Satsang Exercise Yoga Chi Qong...If my mind wonders it's so hard to keep it on track. We are talking @ least two hours tho. An it takes self motivation the choice to maybe let an action bear fruit [easier said den done] if I want to pave my way, tis the only way to keep clarity of mind & even den my expectations exceed my limit. We will always meet obstacles sometimes it's like fate has deliberately put dem our way; other obstacles tis jus our way. I've been bereft of a lot dat I say, wots said above must be done. After jus two days the world opens with new beginnings, disapointment also; never tink yor find yorself in others when alone.Question: Know yor limit...influence
Wot the fuck das dat mean? Well I can only cope with de first question. Influence such an important word it's a question on wot we allow ourselves to be influenced by cos wot effect does dat influence have. 'Oh another gap.'
Positive; uplifting; 'puts a smile on yer face' das good. Negative; well how does one cope. The negative input; how much control do we have, is it getting about the obstacles thrown up by a badly run society. Nuffin works in the public sector [our bedrock] So we gotta cope with hoplessness-resignation and negativity pervades our psyche. Un necessary stress das one kind. The way the state fills us with terror basically...Enuff on dat I kno Bogey!
Control negativity self worth enhance our mind state. Knowledge enlightenment during a ten day silent meditation period I seemed to turn my ego off at will. The beauty tranquility of dat place can only be found in following a strict set of beliefs. Easy options have deluded me 'oh you can get away with chanting jus ten/fifteen minutes twice a day.' Now after going to dese gatherings where we share our love by chanting for an hour before anyone talks I kno easy options are bad influences delusion. Like I've had a biscuit for lunch so don't need to eat, my body has it's lunch- energy from a biscuit!
Or slander for me dis is reserved for those beliefs I bitterly oppose not people. Because in my view it is not proper behaviour, to hear Chinese whispers said about oneself is down to me even tho I've not spoken dose words. We must even take responsibility for wot we have not done/said. If delusion makes people utter falsehoods why should it bother me; if I have only spoken true? Yeah well sumtimes it's best to keep it to yor self take responsibility by not saying anyting. When we know it will cause slander all to often in an open community one will find dose dat tink different to yorself.....I entered into a relationship with a very special person 'I kno Bogey'....Thru the internet loadsa people are doing it but dis has been in front of a forum which spreads loving kindness for people dat are/going to/ have been thru. Gotta be one of the hardest programmes/cures there is for some; the leaflet actually says it in the pack.
Wuz the word I'm gonna use now Bogey? ... Yep 'but' dis word could compromise a saint. I tink the best way to put it is how do we interpret our input.and..thus our output; One ting dat the Thai people loved about me wuz how I interpreted stuff. Coss a Buddhist sees/interprets life so differently to us in the west 'no one has ever died in the name of Buddha.'
I have to accept my ignorance when you hear a person chant an den kno dat persons basic personality! Without ever speaking to dem. This is not a curse as I first thought but a blessing. It took me a while to understand/cope with it. I kno wot you gotta work on kinda ting; they is they an I am I with my flaws to. But we are both chanting thus it does not matter. The answer will come to dem when they are ready; the same as it will for me; before den is a waste of time [the answer] cos despite knowing it we are not gonna act on it. Denial strenghens our negative side. Acceptance our positive side....
So which one do we choose denial or acceptence. If summin bothers one outside of oneself we have a choice do we take the negative side or accept it & thus not let it hinder us. An example yor laying down about to have acupuncture an the building is rattling-vibrating from a drill das demolishing a block of offices behind the building. Friggin unreal; you jus gotta let go take yorself to a safe place in yor mind. The benefits in dis case Acupuncture far outweigh the negatives.
Choose to let go 'das how it is' the friggin council don't give a fuck bout the ruction of totally demolishing a building younger than those buildings around it? The vibration is gonna demolish buildings dat survived the war. Arh the need for acomadation far exceeds the need for employment dunnit HUH. An who gives a damn about the effect on workers locally.
Well drop dat taut for now cos I'm having acupuncture so I go to a safe place.
we can't live in truble we can't live in pain
To kno dat we can't really lay blame can we all go back in time das insane
People can relate to the same mind frame when we fight to stay sane
Try not to replay dis game cos we all kno our name
Tis nought but folly when all dat cometh is fame
Ch ch changes come on we know tis our game
Stand still take oneself an wrap it in love an kindness
For we live our life amongst so much strifeThe lord from above sings us his song
Come unto me my child for there is no wrong
Into this life we bring our gift to belong
Acceptence part of being being our song yet we can exist so alone
Be right here now lets all start singing our song so cheerful we can belong
We don't see the world rushing us by but take fate/life on the chin
Forget anger: Oh the noise I really don't wanna make a din
Anger so prevalent it really should be made a sin
Put dat put dat right over dere 'yeah' in da bin
Cold Tired Hungry Lonely Sad Bored: Lets start with the first just eaten some pasta an veggies.
Tired: not really used to be more despondent now
Hungry: just ate
Lonely: Always but not kinda ting. There is a place I go to naturaly the Healer said same.
Sad: My whole life is pretty sad leave a talented child without guidence an dey will get up to mischive. Das me quite an adventure tho! I like to laugh nuffin wrong in dat.
Bored: Yep gimme summin get ma teeth into dat I really likem doing creating summin good. The means of communication is available now dis blog the forums, the internet; very exciting jus gotta make the connections. Sometimes I tink why is it up to me to contact people why have dey not called me. Dunno cos my mind drifts an next minute one has lost contact. Chanting does empower people, even if you get a knock back 'so what.'
Namaste
INNIT The Dude
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